A WOMAN who was sexually abused for years by her paedophile father and his friends spoke yesterday of her horror at discovering that one of her childhood abusers lived on her street. The young mum told The Guernsey Press that she relives the nightmare of her abuse every time she sees the rapist.
She also claimed that several other men who raped her as a child are still living in the island.
‘One day I was walking to the corner shop and I had to turn around because I had just seen one of the men who abused me as a child,’ said the 24-year-old.
‘Seeing him really angered me and it made me think, ﾓhow dare youﾔ, I haven’t been able to move on with my life and I have never got justice for the abuse I suffered.’
Fortunately, the man did not recognise her because several years had passed since the abuse took place.
‘I have to stop my car to allow him to cross the road and this is the hardest thing because sometimes I get so angry I just want to kill him,’ she said.
‘I never would, though, because I like to think I am better than him and my kids are the most important thing in my life.’
Seeing the man brought back many memories about the paedophile ring that the woman had tried to forget.
‘It’s smells that get to me the most,’ she said. ‘One guy always smelt so dirty and he was one of the persistent abusers.’
She said that members of the ring always made their own demands of her and forced her to do things that no child should ever have to do.
Several of her abusers have moved to the UK but the woman was shocked when she bumped into another at her local supermarket only last week.
‘I just froze when I saw him. It just brought it all back and made me feel as vulnerable as I had as a child.’
The woman claimed she had no protection as a youngster and still felt at risk. She added that she doesn’t let her children use public toilets for fear of paedophiles in the island.
‘I feel I have been let down by the authorities because they couldn’t do anything about what I went through,’ she explained.
‘My experience is not just my own. I know of others who were abused by paedophiles as children.
‘The problem is that victims lie about it because they are ashamed.’
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